vexed

while the world keeps revolving and everything in it, my life seems to be on a halt, breathing yet lifeless, relax yet abashed.. im not sure where i left myself.. i am trembling inside yet gallant on anything. lost over my familiarities.. my brain is my weapon, my room is my death trap, my life is my witness, i have gain everything but fulfillment. i have lost everything but envy.

strange things happened of which i knew nothing.........

lost

la gyud ko ma sulti. though daghan au ko thoughts sa ako mind pero di lang gyud nako ma sulat.. ambut di nako kbaw mo express or its just stuck deep in my brain, usa nalang ka lock gyud ang nag lock ani pero di pa gyud ma abli..

this is my life's soundtrack for this week and last week:

Call you up in the middle of the night
Like a firefly without a light
You were there like a slow torch burning
I was a key that could use a little turning

So tired that I couldn't even sleep
So many secrets I couldn't keep
Promised myself I wouldn't weep
One more promise I couldn't keep

It seems no one can help me now
I'm in too deep
There's no way out
This time I have really led myself astray


Runaway train never going back
Wrong way on a one way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I'm neither here no there

Can you help me remember how to smile
Make it somehow all seem worthwhile
How on earth did I get so jaded
Life's mystery seems so faded

I can go where no one else can go
I know what no one else knows
Here I am just drownin' in the rain
With a ticket for a runaway train

Everything is cut and dry
Day and night, earth and sky
Somehow I just don't believe it

Bought a ticket for a runaway train
Like a madman laughin' at the rain
Little out of touch, little insane
Just easier than dealing with the pain

Runaway train never comin' back
Runaway train tearin' up the track
Runaway train burnin' in my veins
Runaway but it always seems the same

sum up the words and ul know wat is like to be me now! to be lost...............

Emo today!

hehe i know tyew tyew will get goose bumbs when she read the title..hehe yah emo rn na day for my friend, ato lang ibutang sa pangan na si fred..heheh.... well karn adlawa, la lang.la ko sa ako huna2, since gahapon pa ni.. dili ko ka focus in a certain task though daghan au ko huna2 buhatn unta but ambut, subra lang tngali kadaghan gi huna2.. as useless, glabibug kng unsay ghuna2 ni chanak... mau to.. this evening, nag kita mi sa banda. at least na complete na mi..kami apang, brian ug fred... the get together was not just for practice, but we meet cause we want to know hows fredie.. but so far i think fred is still in his kingkoy mode, meaning, suppressive pa cya rn, di pa cya ka express..heehehe so we had a couple of runs with our old songs, of course the "pinalabi", it is really nice playing that song without worrying about singing, nabanhaw na gyud ang bokalista, but for how long?, anyways we tried making a song with my new riff which i just made in my emo mode. the overview of the song and the result of draft, dirty mix of the song is definitely emo! whahahhhhhahah of churs our inspiration! was still fredie.. but it is cool though kinda new style of my guitar riffs... maau ra ni for today!

Kiankee founder's day 07

it was really tiring yet very fun day for me.. what really made me happy was, ever since we left our highschool alma mater i never said a nice thing about the school, but for this year. for the first time since 6 years. i can say they are cool in a sense that they celebrated the founders day with rappelling! i was surprised that i was called by my co-mountaineer that we need man power for an activity in PCGS. PCGS!? i couldnt believe it at first, but when we're there. wow! the elementary kids are more excited! and are more courageous than the highschool people! wow kids, you really thought this was just a game, didnt you? but it was exciting, funny, and very tiring day but their smiles can just take all the burden away.

here are some photos:

see? kids are more active!

finally i have convinced gals to rappel

whaaaaa!

idol! he is just 6 years old!

some of the happy faces today

the wall

this two kids are responsible for my headache

photo photo photo

yeah! photo photo photo!

here are some of the behind the scenes in our photo spree at sto. nino church. with me a co-photographer jhunna, and our shy-vain model egat. the official photos would be released tomorrow, this are just documentations of what we did there.!

(to be named by the photographer)
photo by: jhunna

"gimingaw"
photo by: jhunna

"Light beyond glows"
photo by: chanak

"Bata"
photo by:jhunna

"maniniyot"
photo by: jhunna

sto. nino church
photo by: jhunna

"beyond vanity"
photo by: chanak

"hobby"
photo by: jhunna

"laagan"
photo by: jhunna

story,sorry,weary

sto·ry–noun

1.	a narrative, either true or fictitious, in prose or verse, designed to interest, amuse, or instruct the hearer or reader; tale.

sor·ry–adjective, -ri·er, -ri·est.

1.	feeling regret, compunction, sympathy, pity, etc

2.regrettable or deplorable; unfortunate; tragic

wea·ry -adjective

1.	physically or mentally exhausted by hard work, exertion, strain, etc.; fatigued; tired

the story:
today as of every ordinary day was still ordinary. got up 10am and did my morning rituals which is sleep again. 1130 i woke up again..thinking nothing but call etyew, called her but the line was busy so i just remain in my bed and enjoyed my ever day-dreaming being there. then called up again the 2nd, the 3rd, the 4th,the 5th, the 6th, i guess that was the 7th time i called and finally the phone rang. her mom was the one who answered it. at least in a small span of time in a day i get to be okey.worry free and just happy talking with etyew. imagine a 43min phone call can have its ups and down.hehe

the sorry:
sorry for i reacted not as you wanted, i didnt mean it. i got off guard when said what you want. im sorry. i know you know what kind of person i am, i know you understand me. i know you want me to understand you also..im sorry

the weary:
the rest of the day was hectic. i was still disturbed, preoccupied with so many thoughts. i cant even recall now what i was thinking, i got a couple of phone calls from the editor of our magazine. she said, its a go for my cover page this coming next month..again i have to think and write something about my cover. we were also invited to have a dinner together with the rest of the staff at cafe adriatico in crossroads. after which i went home.

its true! its real! its 3!

its true! its real and the trios are great!

im amazed three of my favorite guitarist clashed together for a head bangging concert in various venues in the states..

yup thats:

Joe Satriani

John Petrucci

Paul Gilbert

lyric of the day

STAR
(kurlyntopps)

wake up little child
the world's knocking on your door
fill this room with sadness
and things you dont adore

they make you feel so alive
yet empty inside

what is it you want?
to see the stars up in the sky
what is it you want?
to feel love tonight

your surrounded by your fears
lets pretend were not here
they feed you with those lies
everything's sweet and nice
the world revolves around you
but you dont care, your not there

dry your weary eyes now girl
there's more to life than love

what is it you want?
to see the stars up in the sky
what is it you want?
to feel love tonight

photo works

i just love taking photos.

here are some of my favorite shots

the image said it already

Sinulog 07'

Angela ang egat

egat on her emo stage.. stage 1, now she's in stage 1 1/2!! you go gat!

jhuna the ring

jhunna

THE APANG Brian flying high

Jhunna jumping for.. i dont know who

conceptual, i like it!

At olanggo island, here are some local kids doing the thing they do well
"play"

these are some of my photo works that i liked, it may seem ordinary or a novice to some but we all come from there, ill just take them as i go along and hope it would serve as a challenge and inspiration

-chanak

dodoy, tyew and us

"if i never get to heaven, then at least i will have known, i had an angel here on earth that i could call my very own"

conceptual image of a concpetual life

since its almost heart's day

I was riding a jeepney earlier tonight when i was on my way home from work. I passed by the school were i used to fetch her up. looked at the corner were i used to stand and wait or were she sits and wait for me when i was late. i couldnt help but reminisce the times.

- i just wish you are here